Now I know that it also denotes a black man who only has sex with white women.Ģ. Before researching, if you mentioned ace of spades, one thing came to my mind, and one thing only: the lucky beginner in a game of BS. Now, you can’t even pop into my apartment for a quick hello without having the Chasing Milf Booty DVD shoved in your face-”I don’t know, man, to each is own, but do these look like MILFs to you?!” In hindsight, the fact that visions of cavernous vaginas now regularly appear in my dreams seems worth it, given all that I’ve learned.ġ. To say that I began my investigation as a noob would be putting it lightly prior to researching, the only porn I knew of were the explicit and detailed sex scenes in Roberto Bolaño’s novel The Savage Detectives. Whatever the future holds for me, I know the world has even more surprises in store.I recently finished a 6-month foray into Brooklyn’s porn industry-the result of which you can read here. Sometimes all you can do is focus on the present and handle all it throws at you in due time. I have definitely learned to let go of wanting to control every little thing and planning way too much. And what better place to write than under the Aussie sun? This degree allowed me to explore the meanders of introspective writing. I have also been writing after getting a diploma from London City University. Simply enjoying discovering a new country and culture. I am now based in Sydney where I am learning again to be part of society somehow during my year away from filming. Everyone had an opinion on my decision to marry and on the marriage itself.Īt this point I decided to focus on my personal life and we moved to Paris, London and finally Sydney during the course of our first year together. It was a personal decision that would get a huge amount of attention both good and painfully bad. Throughout the hectic life I was leading, I must have somehow been longing for some sort of stability. Some fans put you on a pedestal whereas others will shred you to pieces at the first chance they get. You expose yourself to the public, with all the pros and cons that come with that. Working in an industry where your body and image is what counts can make it difficult to feel confident and sure of who you are.
It opened up a world of wonder and revelation on both a professional and personal level. Never being afraid of a challenge I chose the latter. I asked myself what to do next? Stop completely and try to erase this chapter or continue porn but aim for the biggest studios out there? I was confronted with the reality of being a porn actor. The feeling I had at that moment will forever stay with me. I was in France’s biggest gay magazine being named one of the world’s top 10 best newcomers in porn. Maybe I was anxious about seeing myself perform to be honest.Ī couple of months later reality hit. I did not see them come out and didn’t really want to see them. It took about six months for my scenes to start coming out. I never would have guessed how much this simple decision would change the rest of my life.Īt first I was filming my scenes without really thinking that people would ever want to see me in a movie. Just a week later I was on my way to film my first scenes. The case he made for me to join his studio resonated with me. He had the kindest words and I saw instantly he was of good intentions.
Having had a fascination for porn and actors for many years I was intrigued. I was a young stylist in beautiful Paris when a producer scouted me online. Three years ago I made a decision that changed my life entirely – I entered the porn industry.